Saturday, November 13, 2010

The Empty loneliness I am feeling

Here I sit at 3:00 in the morning and yet again i can't sleep.  I get so lonely and frustrated at times with my relationship status.  I get tired of the  wishing for someone to be close to me.  I get tired of my preference for  soft romantic music that doesn't help the feelings that I am feeling right now. I get tired of  wishing I could find that man who will  be able to be the most important things I am wishing for in a relationship.  I am sitting here listening to Raheem Devaughn, Musiq Soulchild, India Arie and all those smooth soul types and I am realizing how much music can affect a mood.  Is it too much to ask for a guy that is honest, caring. responsible?

I decided to  keep my body to myself and that is one of the hardest things I have had to do.  Feeling a warm body and arms wrapped around my waist is a feeling I want to feel so bad right now.  I really don't know what to do.

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